Monday, January 09, 2006
dribbling babbling madness
Surprisingly, however, I've never been happier! Life is good, it's good to be busy, and I feel a strange sense of optimism and peace about life. I guess I've once again reached that part of the life-attitude cycle where even though nothing has substantively changed, I'm more than content with what I've got. And what I've got is good. Good gots.
In spite of all the activity going on in the outer world, my inner world has also found time to learn a few things; my heart's been contemplating some interesting stuff. Breakthroughs of a kind. Perhaps that's from whence the optimism derives. When you learn something new, doesn't it give you this feeling of energy? Like now this one thing seems to make more sense, and you're anxious to try out your new method of handling it, and when you see that it's working, and you're happier, it just makes you feel good, and it makes you want to keep going? Is this coherent to anyone?
I feel I'm on the verge of new things, new people, new experiences. And I'm so excited to see what happens. But right now, I'm going to try and sleep. I will practice my visualization exercises and convince myself that I really don't need to cough, that there's really nothing in my lungs that's irritating me. And then I'll cough anyway for a good three minutes, blow my nose, and start all over again. Much like the life-attitude cycle. Who knew you could make a metaphor out of mucus?
How interesting and what a blessing it will be when we finally see the whole picture how God allowed us to endure things and how he moved us - pulled us in certain directions like a chess piece.
Take care dear friend.
Mary @ Mc: I love you. I'm so inspired by what you write. Thank you. Tell Terri I miss her!
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